I'M FREE
Don't grieve for me, for now I'm free
I'm following the path God laid for me
I took his hand when I heard him call
I turned my back and left it all
I could not stay another day
to laugh, to love, to work or play
Tasks undone must stay that way
I found that peace at close of day
If my parting has left a void
then fill it with remembered joy
A friendship shared, a laugh, a kiss,
ah, yes, these things I too will miss
Be not burdened with times of sorrow
I wish you the sunshine of tomorrow
My life's been full, I've savored much
good friends, good times
a loved ones touch
Perhaps my time seemed all too brief
don't lengthen it now with undue grief
Lift up your hearts and share with me
God wanted me now
He set me free.
ADAM--TheStoryofanAngel
Adam Matthew Wilcutt was born on June 6, 1981. My name is Jan, and I am Adam's mother. I had the privilege of Adam for 17 short years. In that short time, he brightened the lives of all he knew. Adam was special from the very start. As his uncle shared at his memorial service, he always thought of others before he thought of himself. He recalled one Christmas when Adam was three, and his sister Tracy was two. The kids were playing with their toys, and the adults were busy visiting. Tracy dropped a toy from her high chair. Without a moment's hesitation, Adam left his own toys, and went to get the toy for her. Then, he stayed, and played with his sister, and helped her enjoy her toys. Adam was a pistol as a little one. His greatest stunt was the time when he was playing with a lighter, and he set a house fire. When the fire department decided to talk to him, he refused. But, he did manage to get to wear the fireman's hat and boots. At age 2 1/2, he, with the help of his brother Shane, cut a tendon in his right ring finger. He went through two operations, and came to love going to the hospital so that he could get "a bobo" (bottle of apple juice) Adam was a star baseball player, but what was so special about him was that he always rooted for the others on his team. Adam was a true sport, who would rather sit out a few innings so others could play, even though he was an All Star. Adam was a golfer, a tennis player, and a National Qualifier in debate his novice year. He was remembered by his teachers as mature and insightful beyond his years. He was a leader, who could take a class and lead it all by himself. His sister shared with us that at lunch, Adam's table was always full, with kids standing around, because everyone wanted to be around Adam. He was voted overall top ninth grader, was a student council president, and a friend to all he met. Adam's best friend was his older brother Shane, and he had a group of very close friends who considered him not only a friend, but their little brother too. Adam spent his last year as a brother to my newly adopted son, Clinton. Although they were only one year apart in age, Adam was the older brother Clinton always wanted. Adam chose to end his life on his seventeenth birthday. None of us knows what was going on in his mind that day, but we do know that when Adam left us, he took a part of our hearts along with him. His visitation and memorial service were beautiful, with hundreds of friends, and standing room only. I truly believe that Adam had accomplished his mission in life, to teach all of us what it was to be a truly caring, loving person. We feel the presence of our "angel" everyday now. Adam's ashes were sprinkled in the mountains in Colorado, by his brother and a group of friends. His dad and I have a few ashes in keepsake urns. Adam will always be here with me, and with all of us. I wouldn't have traded 17 years of Adam for a lifetime with any other son. He was truly a special gift, sent from somewhere up above. It is my hope that out of this story, with it's tragic ending, we will somehow find a way to reach teenagers before they choose to leave the world of their own hand. Please visit my links, and remember, life is a precious and fragile gift. Never take anyone, or anything for granted.
Here is my tribute to Adam, which I gave at his memorial service.
Mom's Tribute to Adam, 6/9/98
"Nothing can bring you peace but yourself"
Ralph Waldo Emerson
I believe in angels. I believe they live among us. Adam was an angel, sent to us to brighten our hearts and our lives. Everyone whose life he touched was touched with joy and laughter. Adi found his own peace, in his own way, and he will never hurt again. But he will live on forever through each of us in all our hearts. He's with us forever. I love you Adi. I love you baby, with all my heart and all my soul. You'll be with me through all my life.
